Hello out there,
it's nearly eight o'clock here and I'm sitting (as so often) in one of my favourite coffee shops down the beach. Today I saw Similu again and it was good to see him again. I like him so much...and it will break my heart to go away from this place knowing that I'll leave him behind like all the rest of the things I learned to love here.
On the other hand I miss home, I miss my family, my friends and my boyfriend Mr. Ton. I'm so angry at him but I don't even know why. Maybe it's because he isn't there but that's my fault alone- it was me who decided to leave home and go living nearly 3 month in Ireland. I'm afraid thinking of what I've done. I'm afraid that he forgot loving me like he did before. And I can't even be angry at him, because I was so selfish in this time. He needed to study hard and I always wanted his attention. I feel a bit sad and troubled today.
I'm tired but the girl from the coffee shop invited me to go out with her friends and her. So why not?
Maybe a glass of wine isn't a bad idea at all. Who knows^^
Good night,
Nives
it's nearly eight o'clock here and I'm sitting (as so often) in one of my favourite coffee shops down the beach. Today I saw Similu again and it was good to see him again. I like him so much...and it will break my heart to go away from this place knowing that I'll leave him behind like all the rest of the things I learned to love here.
On the other hand I miss home, I miss my family, my friends and my boyfriend Mr. Ton. I'm so angry at him but I don't even know why. Maybe it's because he isn't there but that's my fault alone- it was me who decided to leave home and go living nearly 3 month in Ireland. I'm afraid thinking of what I've done. I'm afraid that he forgot loving me like he did before. And I can't even be angry at him, because I was so selfish in this time. He needed to study hard and I always wanted his attention. I feel a bit sad and troubled today.
I'm tired but the girl from the coffee shop invited me to go out with her friends and her. So why not?
Maybe a glass of wine isn't a bad idea at all. Who knows^^
Good night,
Nives
nivesgirl97 am 15. Dezember 2016 | 0 Kommentare
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My dear flowers,
As I lived now 10 weeks in Ireland I was confronted very often with the peoples opinions concerning the church, religion and god...and to be honest it was hard to hear what they told me about my religion...about the religion I put all my hopes in.
Well I thought about it and here are my thoughts about it (please don't mind my bad english).
In the past most people didn't know that Jesus loves them...can you imagine that? They didn't know him at all- neither the bible nor the personal prayer. So a lot of bad things happened in church. Priests got a lot of power and ruled everything. People were even afraid of them and not just about them, they were afraid of god.
So what I'm writing now is really, really sad guys: A lot of priests told people about a god who sends everyone to hell who behaves badly and they forgot (maybe they didn't even know themselves) to tell people about the love of god.. They told them terrifying stories so that they got their money and they even abused children. The irish people here told me all of this...I've heard from it before but in Ireland things concering the church went really bad. So now you might ask yourself why I'm still in church and why I believe in god. Well that's a good question and I want to answer it:
First I believe in god- I don't believe in church but I put a lot of hope in church and I know now that I should pray more for church....everyone who belongs to church should pray more for it and all the theologians and priests in it.
The church is a community of people, who try to follow the example of Jesus. But the point is: they are people- they CAN fail. But I believe, that if these people in church pray for the wisdom and the light of the holy spirit they can acutally really get inspired so that they can do the things as Jesus want them to do them.
You know, it's not just about how the church was in the past- it's about how the church is in the future and esspecially in the NOW. I am in church because I see myself as a part of a change in it. I like the idea of the church and the actual meaning. I want to follow christ in a community, I want to have some theologians who really studied on the bible, who really try to interprete it correctly and who really try to follow Jesus. I put a lot of hope in church and we all should pray more for the church for it can develop in a good way and grow into a church which will be the light in this world which god wants to see.
This god I believe in is a loving god. He isn't a god who wants us to be scared or shy or anything similar to these horrible feelings. God came as a baby to us...and have you ever asked yourself why? Because who could ever be scared of a baby?
And in this time now which we call "Advent" it's the time where we wait for the day where we will remember Jesus coming as a baby to our world.
Let's think about this...about the meaning behind it and let's think about the church. Which role we have and want to have in it. Let's think about what the actual role of the church is.
As I lived now 10 weeks in Ireland I was confronted very often with the peoples opinions concerning the church, religion and god...and to be honest it was hard to hear what they told me about my religion...about the religion I put all my hopes in.
Well I thought about it and here are my thoughts about it (please don't mind my bad english).
In the past most people didn't know that Jesus loves them...can you imagine that? They didn't know him at all- neither the bible nor the personal prayer. So a lot of bad things happened in church. Priests got a lot of power and ruled everything. People were even afraid of them and not just about them, they were afraid of god.
So what I'm writing now is really, really sad guys: A lot of priests told people about a god who sends everyone to hell who behaves badly and they forgot (maybe they didn't even know themselves) to tell people about the love of god.. They told them terrifying stories so that they got their money and they even abused children. The irish people here told me all of this...I've heard from it before but in Ireland things concering the church went really bad. So now you might ask yourself why I'm still in church and why I believe in god. Well that's a good question and I want to answer it:
First I believe in god- I don't believe in church but I put a lot of hope in church and I know now that I should pray more for church....everyone who belongs to church should pray more for it and all the theologians and priests in it.
The church is a community of people, who try to follow the example of Jesus. But the point is: they are people- they CAN fail. But I believe, that if these people in church pray for the wisdom and the light of the holy spirit they can acutally really get inspired so that they can do the things as Jesus want them to do them.
You know, it's not just about how the church was in the past- it's about how the church is in the future and esspecially in the NOW. I am in church because I see myself as a part of a change in it. I like the idea of the church and the actual meaning. I want to follow christ in a community, I want to have some theologians who really studied on the bible, who really try to interprete it correctly and who really try to follow Jesus. I put a lot of hope in church and we all should pray more for the church for it can develop in a good way and grow into a church which will be the light in this world which god wants to see.
This god I believe in is a loving god. He isn't a god who wants us to be scared or shy or anything similar to these horrible feelings. God came as a baby to us...and have you ever asked yourself why? Because who could ever be scared of a baby?
And in this time now which we call "Advent" it's the time where we wait for the day where we will remember Jesus coming as a baby to our world.
Let's think about this...about the meaning behind it and let's think about the church. Which role we have and want to have in it. Let's think about what the actual role of the church is.
As I lived now 10 weeks in Ireland I was confronted very often with the peoples opinions concerning the church, religion and god...and to be honest it was hard to hear what they told me about my religion...about the religion I put all my hopes in.
Well I thought about it and here are my thoughts about it (please don't mind my bad english).
In the past most people didn't know that Jesus loves them...can you imagine that? They didn't know him at all- neither the bible nor the personal prayer. So a lot of bad things happened in church. Priests got a lot of power and ruled everything. People were even afraid of them and not just about them, they were afraid of god.
So what I'm writing now is really, really sad guys: A lot of priests told people about a god who sends everyone to hell who behaves badly and they forgot (maybe they didn't even know themselves) to tell people about the love of god.. They told them terrifying stories so that they got their money and they even abused children. The irish people here told me all of this...I've heard from it before but in Ireland things concering the church went really bad. So now you might ask yourself why I'm still in church and why I believe in god. Well that's a good question and I want to answer it:
First I believe in god- I don't believe in church but I put a lot of hope in church and I know now that I should pray more for church....everyone who belongs to church should pray more for it and all the theologians and priests in it.
The church is a community of people, who try to follow the example of Jesus. But the point is: they are people- they CAN fail. But I believe, that if these people in church pray for the wisdom and the light of the holy spirit they can acutally really get inspired so that they can do the things as Jesus want them to do them.
You know, it's not just about how the church was in the past- it's about how the church is in the future and esspecially in the NOW. I am in church because I see myself as a part of a change in it. I like the idea of the church and the actual meaning. I want to follow christ in a community, I want to have some theologians who really studied on the bible, who really try to interprete it correctly and who really try to follow Jesus. I put a lot of hope in church and we all should pray more for the church for it can develop in a good way and grow into a church which will be the light in this world which god wants to see.
This god I believe in is a loving god. He isn't a god who wants us to be scared or shy or anything similar to these horrible feelings. God came as a baby to us...and have you ever asked yourself why? Because who could ever be scared of a baby?
And in this time now which we call "Advent" it's the time where we wait for the day where we will remember Jesus coming as a baby to our world.
Let's think about this...about the meaning behind it and let's think about the church. Which role we have and want to have in it. Let's think about what the actual role of the church is.
As I lived now 10 weeks in Ireland I was confronted very often with the peoples opinions concerning the church, religion and god...and to be honest it was hard to hear what they told me about my religion...about the religion I put all my hopes in.
Well I thought about it and here are my thoughts about it (please don't mind my bad english).
In the past most people didn't know that Jesus loves them...can you imagine that? They didn't know him at all- neither the bible nor the personal prayer. So a lot of bad things happened in church. Priests got a lot of power and ruled everything. People were even afraid of them and not just about them, they were afraid of god.
So what I'm writing now is really, really sad guys: A lot of priests told people about a god who sends everyone to hell who behaves badly and they forgot (maybe they didn't even know themselves) to tell people about the love of god.. They told them terrifying stories so that they got their money and they even abused children. The irish people here told me all of this...I've heard from it before but in Ireland things concering the church went really bad. So now you might ask yourself why I'm still in church and why I believe in god. Well that's a good question and I want to answer it:
First I believe in god- I don't believe in church but I put a lot of hope in church and I know now that I should pray more for church....everyone who belongs to church should pray more for it and all the theologians and priests in it.
The church is a community of people, who try to follow the example of Jesus. But the point is: they are people- they CAN fail. But I believe, that if these people in church pray for the wisdom and the light of the holy spirit they can acutally really get inspired so that they can do the things as Jesus want them to do them.
You know, it's not just about how the church was in the past- it's about how the church is in the future and esspecially in the NOW. I am in church because I see myself as a part of a change in it. I like the idea of the church and the actual meaning. I want to follow christ in a community, I want to have some theologians who really studied on the bible, who really try to interprete it correctly and who really try to follow Jesus. I put a lot of hope in church and we all should pray more for the church for it can develop in a good way and grow into a church which will be the light in this world which god wants to see.
This god I believe in is a loving god. He isn't a god who wants us to be scared or shy or anything similar to these horrible feelings. God came as a baby to us...and have you ever asked yourself why? Because who could ever be scared of a baby?
And in this time now which we call "Advent" it's the time where we wait for the day where we will remember Jesus coming as a baby to our world.
Let's think about this...about the meaning behind it and let's think about the church. Which role we have and want to have in it. Let's think about what the actual role of the church is.
nivesgirl97 am 15. Dezember 2016 | 0 Kommentare
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Hello my dear daisys,
today I took a day off from school- I slept not longer than usual but nevermind (it's always like this^^).
I'll visit my old aupair, which now lives in Dundalk in the north of ireland. It'll take me about 2 hours to get there and it will cost me a lot. I hope I can get away with paying less- (I don't want to cheat but the trains here cost so, so much...). I hope I can meet my best friend here but I think there's not enough time- well we'll see :) Everything is possible here.
Here's a little song for you- it plays in all the little coffee shops here in ireland and I love it now.
Do you have any plans for today?
Be blessed,
Nives
today I took a day off from school- I slept not longer than usual but nevermind (it's always like this^^).
I'll visit my old aupair, which now lives in Dundalk in the north of ireland. It'll take me about 2 hours to get there and it will cost me a lot. I hope I can get away with paying less- (I don't want to cheat but the trains here cost so, so much...). I hope I can meet my best friend here but I think there's not enough time- well we'll see :) Everything is possible here.
Here's a little song for you- it plays in all the little coffee shops here in ireland and I love it now.
Do you have any plans for today?
Be blessed,
Nives
nivesgirl97 am 14. Dezember 2016 | 0 Kommentare
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Hello my dearest flowers,
today I want to write about the title of my blog. I changed it very often - because me myself am a person who changes a lot...it's not always a good thing but often it helped me to find out what I really want in life.
So here's the new title "Hello mr. Fox" and it might seem a bit weird to you.
I like the symbol of the fox. I think a lot about the book "the little prince" and there, the fox plays a very important role. You should read the chapter in the book...but I've also found a little video for you which will show you maybe what I mean:
The fox got a very important role in my life now. First, he is the symbol of me and my boyfriend- we both have a hoody with a geometric fox on it. We also both wear a ring around our neck (I sometimes wear it on my finger) and the end is shaped like a little head of a fox. Altough it's very simple it is beautiful to me.
The fox tells the little prine a bit about love- but he tells them the most important things- that's why the fox is for me a symbol of love.
But here in Bray I found a friend...and he became a real one. One, which I have tamed and who has tamed me, so that we both will have to cry some day if we have to say "good bye". Maybe we won't cry in front of each other, maybe not at all...but sometimes our heart will hurt a bit which means that we miss each other. It's a friendship which the fox had discribed to the little prince. In a coffee shop Similu gave me my christmaspresent...it is a little fox plush toy. It made me really happy...his name is Fox, He will be the fox of the little prince who goes every way with me.
I thought about love today. About love and about my boyfriend. I thought that I don't want to be dependent on him because sometimes it hurts. But I like to love...it can be such a wonderful feeling, so I prefer to be dependent. Because being independent in life just works if we don't love one another. I might be wrong here...but for me that seems logical right now.
On the 19th I'm going to visit my boyfriend and at the moment it just seemes strange to me...First I missed him so much, but now I just have a feeling I don't like. It makes me a little bit sad. He is just so perfect...I really love him and I know that he does love me too. But he has a lot to do and sometimes he doesn't have as much time for me as I would have for him. That's normal and it's ok- I just have to learn to deal with it.
Today I'll have dinner with old friends of my cousin- an old couple. They are so nice and I really like them! I can't wait to have that wonderful conversation with them...I am just so happy they exist even if I only saw them one time before. I can learn from them by simply taling to them and that are the people I like most. People with whom you can speak about life and learn...The last time we talked about god in such a beautiful and interesting way. I loved it.
I really don't like smalltalk. That's so unattractive to me. I know sometimes it starts with smalltalk, but if it never stops I get bored and annoyed. I mean there's so much in people and I want to know it. There's so much beauty in people and I want to see it.
Their thoughts and their stories, their feelings...I'm very interested in the human beings. In what they believe and in what they put all their hopes.
With smalltalk you'll never really find out whom you are talking to. You'll just know if it's a cook or a bank manager, how old he or she is and where they live. But you'll never know more about them...isn't it sad?
Have a wonderful afternoon,
Nives
today I want to write about the title of my blog. I changed it very often - because me myself am a person who changes a lot...it's not always a good thing but often it helped me to find out what I really want in life.
So here's the new title "Hello mr. Fox" and it might seem a bit weird to you.
I like the symbol of the fox. I think a lot about the book "the little prince" and there, the fox plays a very important role. You should read the chapter in the book...but I've also found a little video for you which will show you maybe what I mean:
The fox got a very important role in my life now. First, he is the symbol of me and my boyfriend- we both have a hoody with a geometric fox on it. We also both wear a ring around our neck (I sometimes wear it on my finger) and the end is shaped like a little head of a fox. Altough it's very simple it is beautiful to me.
The fox tells the little prine a bit about love- but he tells them the most important things- that's why the fox is for me a symbol of love.
But here in Bray I found a friend...and he became a real one. One, which I have tamed and who has tamed me, so that we both will have to cry some day if we have to say "good bye". Maybe we won't cry in front of each other, maybe not at all...but sometimes our heart will hurt a bit which means that we miss each other. It's a friendship which the fox had discribed to the little prince. In a coffee shop Similu gave me my christmaspresent...it is a little fox plush toy. It made me really happy...his name is Fox, He will be the fox of the little prince who goes every way with me.
I thought about love today. About love and about my boyfriend. I thought that I don't want to be dependent on him because sometimes it hurts. But I like to love...it can be such a wonderful feeling, so I prefer to be dependent. Because being independent in life just works if we don't love one another. I might be wrong here...but for me that seems logical right now.
On the 19th I'm going to visit my boyfriend and at the moment it just seemes strange to me...First I missed him so much, but now I just have a feeling I don't like. It makes me a little bit sad. He is just so perfect...I really love him and I know that he does love me too. But he has a lot to do and sometimes he doesn't have as much time for me as I would have for him. That's normal and it's ok- I just have to learn to deal with it.
Today I'll have dinner with old friends of my cousin- an old couple. They are so nice and I really like them! I can't wait to have that wonderful conversation with them...I am just so happy they exist even if I only saw them one time before. I can learn from them by simply taling to them and that are the people I like most. People with whom you can speak about life and learn...The last time we talked about god in such a beautiful and interesting way. I loved it.
I really don't like smalltalk. That's so unattractive to me. I know sometimes it starts with smalltalk, but if it never stops I get bored and annoyed. I mean there's so much in people and I want to know it. There's so much beauty in people and I want to see it.
Their thoughts and their stories, their feelings...I'm very interested in the human beings. In what they believe and in what they put all their hopes.
With smalltalk you'll never really find out whom you are talking to. You'll just know if it's a cook or a bank manager, how old he or she is and where they live. But you'll never know more about them...isn't it sad?
Have a wonderful afternoon,
Nives
Hello my lovely flowers,
as you have already noticed, I wrote that entry in English. Well, that has a very easy explanation:
First, I want to improve my English...I might make some mistakes, so if you notice them please correct me in the comments.
I also lived in Bray for now 10 weeks and this is my last week there. Even if I can't wait to go home I met a friend - this friend is not just a friend. It's a real friend. His name is Similu. If you want to know the story of how I met him and why he is that important to me just leave a comment down below.
Well- that's the main reason of the change of language. I want him to take part of my little life just as you guys do that too.
Good night,
Nives
as you have already noticed, I wrote that entry in English. Well, that has a very easy explanation:
First, I want to improve my English...I might make some mistakes, so if you notice them please correct me in the comments.
I also lived in Bray for now 10 weeks and this is my last week there. Even if I can't wait to go home I met a friend - this friend is not just a friend. It's a real friend. His name is Similu. If you want to know the story of how I met him and why he is that important to me just leave a comment down below.
Well- that's the main reason of the change of language. I want him to take part of my little life just as you guys do that too.
Good night,
Nives
nivesgirl97 am 13. Dezember 2016 | 0 Kommentare
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