Hello my dearest flowers,
today I want to write about the title of my blog. I changed it very often - because me myself am a person who changes a lot...it's not always a good thing but often it helped me to find out what I really want in life.
So here's the new title "Hello mr. Fox" and it might seem a bit weird to you.
I like the symbol of the fox. I think a lot about the book "the little prince" and there, the fox plays a very important role. You should read the chapter in the book...but I've also found a little video for you which will show you maybe what I mean:



The fox got a very important role in my life now. First, he is the symbol of me and my boyfriend- we both have a hoody with a geometric fox on it. We also both wear a ring around our neck (I sometimes wear it on my finger) and the end is shaped like a little head of a fox. Altough it's very simple it is beautiful to me.
The fox tells the little prine a bit about love- but he tells them the most important things- that's why the fox is for me a symbol of love.
But here in Bray I found a friend...and he became a real one. One, which I have tamed and who has tamed me, so that we both will have to cry some day if we have to say "good bye". Maybe we won't cry in front of each other, maybe not at all...but sometimes our heart will hurt a bit which means that we miss each other. It's a friendship which the fox had discribed to the little prince. In a coffee shop Similu gave me my christmaspresent...it is a little fox plush toy. It made me really happy...his name is Fox, He will be the fox of the little prince who goes every way with me.

I thought about love today. About love and about my boyfriend. I thought that I don't want to be dependent on him because sometimes it hurts. But I like to love...it can be such a wonderful feeling, so I prefer to be dependent. Because being independent in life just works if we don't love one another. I might be wrong here...but for me that seems logical right now.

On the 19th I'm going to visit my boyfriend and at the moment it just seemes strange to me...First I missed him so much, but now I just have a feeling I don't like. It makes me a little bit sad. He is just so perfect...I really love him and I know that he does love me too. But he has a lot to do and sometimes he doesn't have as much time for me as I would have for him. That's normal and it's ok- I just have to learn to deal with it.

Today I'll have dinner with old friends of my cousin- an old couple. They are so nice and I really like them! I can't wait to have that wonderful conversation with them...I am just so happy they exist even if I only saw them one time before. I can learn from them by simply taling to them and that are the people I like most. People with whom you can speak about life and learn...The last time we talked about god in such a beautiful and interesting way. I loved it.

I really don't like smalltalk. That's so unattractive to me. I know sometimes it starts with smalltalk, but if it never stops I get bored and annoyed. I mean there's so much in people and I want to know it. There's so much beauty in people and I want to see it.
Their thoughts and their stories, their feelings...I'm very interested in the human beings. In what they believe and in what they put all their hopes.
With smalltalk you'll never really find out whom you are talking to. You'll just know if it's a cook or a bank manager, how old he or she is and where they live. But you'll never know more about them...isn't it sad?

Have a wonderful afternoon,
Nives

Hello my lovely flowers,
as you have already noticed, I wrote that entry in English. Well, that has a very easy explanation:
First, I want to improve my English...I might make some mistakes, so if you notice them please correct me in the comments.
I also lived in Bray for now 10 weeks and this is my last week there. Even if I can't wait to go home I met a friend - this friend is not just a friend. It's a real friend. His name is Similu. If you want to know the story of how I met him and why he is that important to me just leave a comment down below.
Well- that's the main reason of the change of language. I want him to take part of my little life just as you guys do that too.

Good night,
Nives