Hello out there,
it's nearly eight o'clock here and I'm sitting (as so often) in one of my favourite coffee shops down the beach. Today I saw Similu again and it was good to see him again. I like him so much...and it will break my heart to go away from this place knowing that I'll leave him behind like all the rest of the things I learned to love here.
On the other hand I miss home, I miss my family, my friends and my boyfriend Mr. Ton. I'm so angry at him but I don't even know why. Maybe it's because he isn't there but that's my fault alone- it was me who decided to leave home and go living nearly 3 month in Ireland. I'm afraid thinking of what I've done. I'm afraid that he forgot loving me like he did before. And I can't even be angry at him, because I was so selfish in this time. He needed to study hard and I always wanted his attention. I feel a bit sad and troubled today.
I'm tired but the girl from the coffee shop invited me to go out with her friends and her. So why not?
Maybe a glass of wine isn't a bad idea at all. Who knows^^
Good night,
Nives
it's nearly eight o'clock here and I'm sitting (as so often) in one of my favourite coffee shops down the beach. Today I saw Similu again and it was good to see him again. I like him so much...and it will break my heart to go away from this place knowing that I'll leave him behind like all the rest of the things I learned to love here.
On the other hand I miss home, I miss my family, my friends and my boyfriend Mr. Ton. I'm so angry at him but I don't even know why. Maybe it's because he isn't there but that's my fault alone- it was me who decided to leave home and go living nearly 3 month in Ireland. I'm afraid thinking of what I've done. I'm afraid that he forgot loving me like he did before. And I can't even be angry at him, because I was so selfish in this time. He needed to study hard and I always wanted his attention. I feel a bit sad and troubled today.
I'm tired but the girl from the coffee shop invited me to go out with her friends and her. So why not?
Maybe a glass of wine isn't a bad idea at all. Who knows^^
Good night,
Nives
nivesgirl97 am 15. Dezember 2016 | 0 Kommentare
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My dear flowers,
As I lived now 10 weeks in Ireland I was confronted very often with the peoples opinions concerning the church, religion and god...and to be honest it was hard to hear what they told me about my religion...about the religion I put all my hopes in.
Well I thought about it and here are my thoughts about it (please don't mind my bad english).
In the past most people didn't know that Jesus loves them...can you imagine that? They didn't know him at all- neither the bible nor the personal prayer. So a lot of bad things happened in church. Priests got a lot of power and ruled everything. People were even afraid of them and not just about them, they were afraid of god.
So what I'm writing now is really, really sad guys: A lot of priests told people about a god who sends everyone to hell who behaves badly and they forgot (maybe they didn't even know themselves) to tell people about the love of god.. They told them terrifying stories so that they got their money and they even abused children. The irish people here told me all of this...I've heard from it before but in Ireland things concering the church went really bad. So now you might ask yourself why I'm still in church and why I believe in god. Well that's a good question and I want to answer it:
First I believe in god- I don't believe in church but I put a lot of hope in church and I know now that I should pray more for church....everyone who belongs to church should pray more for it and all the theologians and priests in it.
The church is a community of people, who try to follow the example of Jesus. But the point is: they are people- they CAN fail. But I believe, that if these people in church pray for the wisdom and the light of the holy spirit they can acutally really get inspired so that they can do the things as Jesus want them to do them.
You know, it's not just about how the church was in the past- it's about how the church is in the future and esspecially in the NOW. I am in church because I see myself as a part of a change in it. I like the idea of the church and the actual meaning. I want to follow christ in a community, I want to have some theologians who really studied on the bible, who really try to interprete it correctly and who really try to follow Jesus. I put a lot of hope in church and we all should pray more for the church for it can develop in a good way and grow into a church which will be the light in this world which god wants to see.
This god I believe in is a loving god. He isn't a god who wants us to be scared or shy or anything similar to these horrible feelings. God came as a baby to us...and have you ever asked yourself why? Because who could ever be scared of a baby?
And in this time now which we call "Advent" it's the time where we wait for the day where we will remember Jesus coming as a baby to our world.
Let's think about this...about the meaning behind it and let's think about the church. Which role we have and want to have in it. Let's think about what the actual role of the church is.
As I lived now 10 weeks in Ireland I was confronted very often with the peoples opinions concerning the church, religion and god...and to be honest it was hard to hear what they told me about my religion...about the religion I put all my hopes in.
Well I thought about it and here are my thoughts about it (please don't mind my bad english).
In the past most people didn't know that Jesus loves them...can you imagine that? They didn't know him at all- neither the bible nor the personal prayer. So a lot of bad things happened in church. Priests got a lot of power and ruled everything. People were even afraid of them and not just about them, they were afraid of god.
So what I'm writing now is really, really sad guys: A lot of priests told people about a god who sends everyone to hell who behaves badly and they forgot (maybe they didn't even know themselves) to tell people about the love of god.. They told them terrifying stories so that they got their money and they even abused children. The irish people here told me all of this...I've heard from it before but in Ireland things concering the church went really bad. So now you might ask yourself why I'm still in church and why I believe in god. Well that's a good question and I want to answer it:
First I believe in god- I don't believe in church but I put a lot of hope in church and I know now that I should pray more for church....everyone who belongs to church should pray more for it and all the theologians and priests in it.
The church is a community of people, who try to follow the example of Jesus. But the point is: they are people- they CAN fail. But I believe, that if these people in church pray for the wisdom and the light of the holy spirit they can acutally really get inspired so that they can do the things as Jesus want them to do them.
You know, it's not just about how the church was in the past- it's about how the church is in the future and esspecially in the NOW. I am in church because I see myself as a part of a change in it. I like the idea of the church and the actual meaning. I want to follow christ in a community, I want to have some theologians who really studied on the bible, who really try to interprete it correctly and who really try to follow Jesus. I put a lot of hope in church and we all should pray more for the church for it can develop in a good way and grow into a church which will be the light in this world which god wants to see.
This god I believe in is a loving god. He isn't a god who wants us to be scared or shy or anything similar to these horrible feelings. God came as a baby to us...and have you ever asked yourself why? Because who could ever be scared of a baby?
And in this time now which we call "Advent" it's the time where we wait for the day where we will remember Jesus coming as a baby to our world.
Let's think about this...about the meaning behind it and let's think about the church. Which role we have and want to have in it. Let's think about what the actual role of the church is.
As I lived now 10 weeks in Ireland I was confronted very often with the peoples opinions concerning the church, religion and god...and to be honest it was hard to hear what they told me about my religion...about the religion I put all my hopes in.
Well I thought about it and here are my thoughts about it (please don't mind my bad english).
In the past most people didn't know that Jesus loves them...can you imagine that? They didn't know him at all- neither the bible nor the personal prayer. So a lot of bad things happened in church. Priests got a lot of power and ruled everything. People were even afraid of them and not just about them, they were afraid of god.
So what I'm writing now is really, really sad guys: A lot of priests told people about a god who sends everyone to hell who behaves badly and they forgot (maybe they didn't even know themselves) to tell people about the love of god.. They told them terrifying stories so that they got their money and they even abused children. The irish people here told me all of this...I've heard from it before but in Ireland things concering the church went really bad. So now you might ask yourself why I'm still in church and why I believe in god. Well that's a good question and I want to answer it:
First I believe in god- I don't believe in church but I put a lot of hope in church and I know now that I should pray more for church....everyone who belongs to church should pray more for it and all the theologians and priests in it.
The church is a community of people, who try to follow the example of Jesus. But the point is: they are people- they CAN fail. But I believe, that if these people in church pray for the wisdom and the light of the holy spirit they can acutally really get inspired so that they can do the things as Jesus want them to do them.
You know, it's not just about how the church was in the past- it's about how the church is in the future and esspecially in the NOW. I am in church because I see myself as a part of a change in it. I like the idea of the church and the actual meaning. I want to follow christ in a community, I want to have some theologians who really studied on the bible, who really try to interprete it correctly and who really try to follow Jesus. I put a lot of hope in church and we all should pray more for the church for it can develop in a good way and grow into a church which will be the light in this world which god wants to see.
This god I believe in is a loving god. He isn't a god who wants us to be scared or shy or anything similar to these horrible feelings. God came as a baby to us...and have you ever asked yourself why? Because who could ever be scared of a baby?
And in this time now which we call "Advent" it's the time where we wait for the day where we will remember Jesus coming as a baby to our world.
Let's think about this...about the meaning behind it and let's think about the church. Which role we have and want to have in it. Let's think about what the actual role of the church is.
As I lived now 10 weeks in Ireland I was confronted very often with the peoples opinions concerning the church, religion and god...and to be honest it was hard to hear what they told me about my religion...about the religion I put all my hopes in.
Well I thought about it and here are my thoughts about it (please don't mind my bad english).
In the past most people didn't know that Jesus loves them...can you imagine that? They didn't know him at all- neither the bible nor the personal prayer. So a lot of bad things happened in church. Priests got a lot of power and ruled everything. People were even afraid of them and not just about them, they were afraid of god.
So what I'm writing now is really, really sad guys: A lot of priests told people about a god who sends everyone to hell who behaves badly and they forgot (maybe they didn't even know themselves) to tell people about the love of god.. They told them terrifying stories so that they got their money and they even abused children. The irish people here told me all of this...I've heard from it before but in Ireland things concering the church went really bad. So now you might ask yourself why I'm still in church and why I believe in god. Well that's a good question and I want to answer it:
First I believe in god- I don't believe in church but I put a lot of hope in church and I know now that I should pray more for church....everyone who belongs to church should pray more for it and all the theologians and priests in it.
The church is a community of people, who try to follow the example of Jesus. But the point is: they are people- they CAN fail. But I believe, that if these people in church pray for the wisdom and the light of the holy spirit they can acutally really get inspired so that they can do the things as Jesus want them to do them.
You know, it's not just about how the church was in the past- it's about how the church is in the future and esspecially in the NOW. I am in church because I see myself as a part of a change in it. I like the idea of the church and the actual meaning. I want to follow christ in a community, I want to have some theologians who really studied on the bible, who really try to interprete it correctly and who really try to follow Jesus. I put a lot of hope in church and we all should pray more for the church for it can develop in a good way and grow into a church which will be the light in this world which god wants to see.
This god I believe in is a loving god. He isn't a god who wants us to be scared or shy or anything similar to these horrible feelings. God came as a baby to us...and have you ever asked yourself why? Because who could ever be scared of a baby?
And in this time now which we call "Advent" it's the time where we wait for the day where we will remember Jesus coming as a baby to our world.
Let's think about this...about the meaning behind it and let's think about the church. Which role we have and want to have in it. Let's think about what the actual role of the church is.
nivesgirl97 am 15. Dezember 2016 | 0 Kommentare
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